The Year That Was | April 2016 to March 2017

 

Hello.

I don’t know what happened, but thanks to the heavens above I actually felt like writing today. I have been trying to get myself to write ever since April last year, but never succeeded. In fact life has tried to manifest this concept in my life so much over the last one year – “Everything will happen in its time.” You cannot budge the hands of time to work according to your convenience.

So much has happened in my life since last year. Let’s begin where I last left –

April 2016:

I was busy preparing for my MBA final year exams and in the meanwhile also applying for jobs. I get an interview call.

May 2016:

May begins with the good news that I have successfully cleared the interview and will be expected to join as soon as exams are done.

June and July 2016:

Getting used to being an adult who has a full time job. Also coming in terms with the fact that I have to wake up in the morning.

31st July, 2016:

It’s J. K. Rowling’s birthday. But this day has a very different significance in my life (yes, I remember dates, bite me). This was the day I told my parents about the boy.

August, September, October 2016:

Wedding date gets fixed. House renovation + wedding prep begins. Mayhem. It’s a miracle I didn’t go mad.

November 2016:

We get engaged. It dawns on me that I have just one month in my own house. Emotional roller coaster begins.

December 2016:

We get married. I move into his place. I get home-sick, a lot.

January 2017:

Still home-sick. Join back work. My granny passed away, complete devastation. Even more home-sick.

February 2017:

Slowly beginning to adjust to the new environment. Miss home. Miss granny.

March 2017:

Bangalore trip. Miss home. Miss granny. Even more emotional turmoil. I have recoiled into my shell. Coming to terms that this is life now. Rough patch at work.

 

And now here I am, on this second day of April, 2017 and these are things I have realized:-

  • Life is sometimes your best friend and also your strictest teacher.
  • Learn to appreciate what you have in life, you never know when circumstances will change.
  • Spend time with your loved ones, you don’t want to have regrets after they’ve gone.
  • Being an adult is hard work.
  • Writing is difficult, when its not in your own room, on your own computer.
  • You don’t always get what you want, and you have to  learn to make peace with that.
  • But that doesn’t mean you have to stop dreaming.
  • I miss home.
  • I will never stop missing my granny.

 

Yours truly – Living, stumbling and learning.

xo

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On The Road To Recovery

Have you ever felt like you don’t know what you want to do anymore? Or rather should I say – don’t know how to get yourself out of a ‘laziness rut’?

Laziness rut: a state wherein everything you are meant to be doing seems stupid and pointless; a state where you would rather let life drag you along than taking any efforts yourself.

Does that sound familiar to any of you or is it just me?

So yes, after two months I have finally  diagnosed what is wrong with me! I’m in a Laziness Rut. (Yep, it took 2 months. Because, duuuh, i’m lazy.)

There I said it. Out and loud for the entire world to see. My name is Saumya and I am a lazy-holic. Self-acceptance is the first step (I read that somewhere).

It’s difficult you know when you loose your sense of purpose. When everything you do seems pointless, which is like seeing your worst nightmares come true. And it not just the blog I am talking about here. It’s everything in my life. I have officially turned into an all-round lazy person.

Biggest case in point would be my 21 before 22 list! Gosh, I am mortified and a little surprised. If a year ago I had enough enthusiasm to even make that list, what went wrong in the last few months? Where has all that zeal gone? I will be 22 shortly and not even half of that list is done. When I point this out to myself, my brain pulls a classic ‘brain’ and comes up with all the excuses it can find.

I don’t want this to be my answer:

 

I want to change, for real this time. Change, because I know I can do better than this.

 

SO, this is a list of things that will be a part of my Road To Recovery:-

  • Become a morning person
  • Get more organized
  • Practice Essentialism a.k.a. learn to say no when needed
  • Go back to using affirmations (because admit it, they really did help)

This is nothing compared to my 21 before 22 list, but that’s the point. Unless I get this in place, no # before # list is ever going to be accomplished.

 

Until next time,

xo